she's a mean, mean woman

if u messaged me i just want you to know that i am not ignoring you. i don’t want to talk to anyone at all right now because, i don’t know, it feels like everything’s been knocked out of me and i just can’t talk to anyone because i don’t have the willpower for it.

i’m not doing very well and i don’t know how to handle that, but if you want my personal blog ask me for it and if we’re mutuals and i trust you i’ll give you the url. 

how cool is that complete strangers offering to help me more than my own friends!!!!

only one friend of mine has acknowledged me at all tonight

i got two other messages from people i don’t really know that well

thank you to those who have acknowledged me because no one else fucking is. i can’t reply right now but i’m not really doing well like i’m super suicidal right now so i need a second to calm down a bit and reply privately

but shout out to my other friends who never message me or anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

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like i’m crying a lot and i’m ripping out my hair my scalp is sore as hell i can’t keep fucking doing this 

the only fucking time people talk to me is to ask my questions about an assignment i repeatedly said i dont fucking understand AT ALL like this is all the real contact i’ve had today every single day of my life is like this i’m really fucking alone and i want to be dead 

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why!!! dont!!!!!!! i !!!!!!!!! have!!!!!!!!! any!!!!!!! friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i love being alone and not having friends :)